July 12, 2009

Email exchange...

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-------Original Message-------
On Fri, Jul 10, 2009 at 11:13 AM, Dr. Lisa Earle wrote:

Just read your latest entry on the blog, my heart goes out,I know exactly how P. Feels, pain wise and otherwise.
You said you expressed yourself (at that Mexican restaurant) how tired YOU are of it -when sickness comes into our life, we all feel that way, Darling. I have been through it many times myself, through Simon, through Susie, my own Cancer surgery and now the Heart sugery...I believe, so many of us go through our own personal holocaust...Life is very tough so often- philosophically there must be a reason for it...At that Mexican restaurant, to WHOM did you "express " yourself thus? I just wonder...

Hang in there, Darling, no matter what, Life still has wonderful moments and IS good!(Ann Frank).

I love you, MOM




-------Original Message-------
From: Dave Ruden
Date: 7/10/2009 3:32:31 PM
To: Dr. Lisa Earle; dave.ruden@gmail.com
Subject: Re: I understand...

Hi Mom,
It was at dinner with Pam. That's what made it so cathartic. I can express this with friends and family, but it's not quite the same as doing so with her as it's about she and I. Was a small short conversation on that aspect, but meaningful.
Done with the worst of this last round now. Only one more infusion to go!
Love you.
---Dave.




-------Original Message-------
From: Dave Ruden
Date: 7/10/2009 4:04:09 PM
To: Dr. Lisa Earle
Subject: Re: I understand...

She teared up a bit cause she knows I'm almost as tired of it as she is. But it was a good reaction, not one of those that says "I take offense". Pretty well balanced gal! That's why I felt comfortable saying so, and why it was such a quality moment. It was about comisserating, not feeling at fault.

Sorry to hear you feels so tired. Julie tells me that the fibrilation not happening anymore.
How goes the physical-therapy?
---D.





-------Original Message-------
On Fri, Jul 10, 2009 at 3:59 PM, Dr. Lisa Earle wrote:

How did she react, when you expressed your feelings in that fashion?(.Only if you want to share it, but I just wonder)....
My day today is rather flat myself, hard to describe, Doc gave me new Med, I guess, to make the newly fashioned heart slow down (Pulse averages 111 beats a minute, shouldn't be over 80 or 90...I am so tired.)

Rough days for all of us, I am afraid...Wish my message would be more uplifting, but...
No matter what, I love you lots, stay strong and take care of yourself!

Love, MOM




-------Original Message-------
From: Dave Ruden
Date: 7/10/2009 4:04:09 PM
To: Dr. Lisa Earle
Subject: Re: I understand...

She teared up a bit cause she knows I'm almost as tired of it as she is. But it was a good reaction, not one of those that says "I take offense". Pretty well balanced gal! That's why I felt comfortable saying so, and why it was such a quality moment. It was about comisserating, not feeling at fault.

Sorry to hear you feels so tired. Julie tells me that the fibrilation not happening anymore.
How goes the physical-therapy?
---D.





-------Original Message-------
On Fri, Jul 10, 2009 at 4:27 PM, Dr. Lisa Earle wrote:

Therapy is helpful. Fibrillation(to me is questionable - why does the pulse stay at 111 and more, I wonder...Doc gave me"Digoxin( also known as Digitalis to slow it down, I guess, but now I have no appetite, which slowly had come back...

Well, I shouldn't burden you with this, forgive my bitching, you have enough on your plate!
You DO have a lot of inner strength throughout this bittersweet experience, DAvid, God bless you!

LOL, MOM